When I…
-am in a crowd, I tend to be able to see people and know a great deal about them just by making a few observations. But when it comes to looking in a mirror, I can never look at myself and imagine how other people view me and judge me. I think people view me as a pretentious asshole, because I know deep down that’s all I am. But people tend to be rather accepting of me overall. I guess what I’m getting at is that I do not know if I’m a jackass cretin, an Average Joe, or something more. I guess it’s an odd thing to say, but nobody ever told me anything about myself. My whole high school career, I thought I was average. But in retrospect, I was a smart ass, a bit of a showboat, and kind of a jerk. And I don’t feel like I truly had any redeeming qualities whatsoever. I don’t know what my girlfriend saw in me then, and I don’t know what she sees in me now. I just don’t know what anybody even likes about me. (This sad, self-depraving rant was brought to you by John Lennon’s “Look At Me”)
